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It has been more than a year since I have written something I REALLY wanted to write, but like always my inspiration came out of nowhere… Okay I´m lying It came from being in my bed with Comptine d'un autre été by Yann Tiersen playing in the background which has become my #1 jam when I want to feel inspired, I highly recommend it to you.

Why I am I writing again? You may ask yourself. Well I have no idea, let’s just see how all the ideas develop while I’m writing. Maybe I’ll start by talking about the tremendous changes in my life that have happened in this year. I started the university. I’m in the English Program, nobody expected that, I hated how everybody just kept telling me you can study Medicine or Engineering and all that bullshit that by being a teacher I’m wasting my intelligence, let me tell you a thing FUCK OFF. I will study want I want to study, and if I fuck up it’s my fault and that’s when I will know I’m not a kid anymore.

So yes, I’m a college boy now, another of the changes is that I finally don’t give a rat’s ass about what people think about my sexuality. I’m gay and I have been “hiding” all my childhood and most of my teenage life, I’m obviously so freaking scared because well let me tell you a little secret… this world we are living sometimes is a shithole but we must suck it up and keep living. By the way I don’t hate the world we’re living in just the society we are forced to live.

I love the fact that I don’t care about my sexuality but I’m still scared of saying this on my blog, that is one of the dreadful things about being gay, you don’t always feel safe. Specially in the city I live. I’m scared of what people are going to say to my mom. I don’t want her to get hurt because of me. I remember when I came out to my parents, my mom started crying and she told me, quote: “What did I do wrong?” It was sad and beautiful that she thought she made something wrong because I was gay. She didn’t blame me she blamed herself. And I love her so much and I know she loves me, it has been an interesting journey from denying to tolerance and know acceptance, I think my dad didn’t had a problem with me being gay. That was 3 years ago, when I came out. I was 14.

It’s hard being gay, that’s what I usually think, but then it came to me that LIFE IS HARD FOR EVERYONE, it doesn’t matter if you are part of the LGBTQ+ community, race, cultural backgrounds, nationalities. Life is hard but Life is beautiful and it’s a gift sometimes we don’t value. We should appreciate what God, the universe or anything that you believe in gave us, even if sometimes what they gave us was a rough time, we learned from that rough time and it made us stronger and wiser. Now let’s go out a little bit of topic.

Is it weird that a 17-year-old gay boy worries to much about a future? Sometimes it happens spontaneously maybe I have been so happy the entire day but then midnight comes and I can’t sleep and in that exact moment my brain starts to ramble on anything like: “Will you ever be a dad?” “Are you going to find a man and marry someday?” “Will he someday realize you love him?” “Will you ever tell him?”

I got really dark the last two questions, I’m listening to The xx maybe that’s the reason, but let’s get deep with the last two questions. Well I’m in love but the thing is the person who I love, is straight (I think so), I’ve known him for years, and  I didn’t want so bad to catch feelings for him but one day he just looked me in the eyes and I felt how my heart stopped. And then every time I see him I just want to touch him, not in the sexual way, I just feel the need to sense him near me, to breathe his scent. HE DRIVES ME CRAZY but I don’t think I will tell him that I love him. I don’t want him to be awkward around me, he knows that I’m gay and he still loves me, as a friend.

I guess I will end this “Monologue” I call them that way because I don’t know what they are. And they sound more interesting that way. So maybe I will write soon. Take care.

BE YOURSELF, LOVE YOURSELF, AND ALWAYS CHOSE LOVE INSTEAD OF HATE

-Hola lectores sorry que no les he escrito nada, y el día de hoy como pueden ver no les traje una reseña si no una pequeña historia, fue una  pesadilla que tuve hoy y la quería compartir por que me relaja escribir así que ahi va- Ps. No se por que la escribí así XD

Era una noche oscura, pero no en el sentido literal, podías sentir que algo malo en cualquier momento iba a pasar, nunca creí que eso era lo que iba a ocurrir.

Era una noche de terror, cruda y dolorosa, creadora de pesadillas, creadora de temor para cualquier persona que estuvo presente ese día.

Era solo una niña, su vida no tenía que ser detenida, el crimen más violento, quitarle la vida a alguien que no ha vivido.

El era un policía por lo que escuche de las personas que estaban a mí alrededor, todos desconsolados por las imágenes en la pantalla, nadie podía creerlo.

Nadie lo aceptaba, nadie podía creer que un ser humano podía hacer algo tan horrible, el acto imperdonable donde un hombre se convierte monstruo.

La vida a veces es injusta, nos hace enojar con las decisiones que ella toma, las oportunidades que nos da o que no nos da, nosotros no podemos hacer nada solo sentarnos y ver cuál es su decisión.

Pero esta vez la vida se pasó de la raya, aun puedo verlo en mi mente como si me hubiera pasado a mí. Por alguna razón puedo ver todo atreves de sus ojos, de sus inocentes y grandes ojos.

Ella no podía hacer nada solo ver como su vida hasta ahí llegaba.

Mientras duermes, nuestro subconsciente crea un mundo, en este sueño era un tipo de policía o detective estaba viendo escenas de un crimen pero una en especial.

Había un carro, en un bosque, dentro de este carro habían dos personas el conductor un hombre de unos 30 años de edad, y en el asiento de atrás, una niña pequeña, irradiaba alegría e inocencia.

El hombre acababa de detener el carro, saco una pistola de su abrigo, por lo que podía ver,  empezó a dispararle al techo del carro, luego miro atrás y vio a la niña, apunto la pistola su cabeza.

Vi todo, era un sueño y lo sabía pero no podía salirme de ese sueño vi como la bala atravesó su cabeza, como la sangre salpicaba todo el carro.

Quería matar a ese hombre hasta que el introdujo parte de la pistola en su boca y disparo. Desperté sudado en mi cama, con miedo que el hombre me había perseguido hasta mi mundo.

Sentía su mirada, lo miraba a la par de mi cama, lo miraba en mi ropero, en la puerta de mi baño, si cerraba los ojos lo podía ver sonriéndome, satisfecho de lo que él había cometido.

No podía llorar si el me escuchaba me iba hacer algo, no podía gritar por ayuda, estaba sufriendo. Aun no sé qué paso, aun no sé por qué soñé esto, solo espero que nunca vuelva a pasar.

Hello I´m back again and this time I´m bringing you a book review, well actually a Saga or Series it doesn’t matter, I know I haven’t written a lot this year, but right now I feel good with my life, I feel inspired, maybe because I listening to Florence and The Machines, wish I love. But let’s get going with the real reason you are here.

SYNOPSIS:

CRITICISM:

(DISCLAIMER) 

Today we are going to talk about a series wish I´ve read recently and I liked, first of all, this series is about LGBT relationships, so if you don’t this type of genre don’t worry, you can read others of my reviews from other genres, but if you don’t care reading this type of books or you want to start reading this type of books then you are welcome to read this review.

I was browsing Goodreads (social media for readers) and I was in this reader block which is a difficult state to get out, so I started searching on my recommendations and I found The Geography Club, I´ve heard a lot of buzz about this book in the LGBTQ+ Community, and intrigued me to know what is about it. I look for more information about it and I found that it has a movie so I made up my mind that I have to read it.

So I downloaded and I started to read it, and felt so connected to the character, he was silly and new to the world of accepting his sexuality, we even shared some moments, and it was fun light hearted read, I felt relaxed, and I felt I was on habitat where I belong. I actually read this book in a day; you don’t even realize that you are going to end it soon.

But let’s talk about the more structural characteristics, I liked how the author transmitted his feelings and I felt more impressed when I saw that the author wasn’t that young but he still knew how to connect with young teens.

The characters: Were so much fun you love Gunnar, Russel and Min they have such a good relationship it reminds me my relationship with my best friends.  Min is the usual Asian know it all (a little bit stereotypical but it worked), Gunnar is the nerd but lovely guy and finally Russel the main character, is this awkward, unlucky but lucky at the same time if you know what I mean.

The story of the book is this bunch of outcast kids decides to make a group, each one of them belong to the LGBT community and from there everything evolves. This is a series formed by 4 books but it has sequel series formed by 3 books which I haven’t read but I´m planning to.

I give this book:

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